Well I've been feeing alot better. However I did recently go through a very hard time. Miles left, it was a pretty bad breakup, and I still don't understand. I nedded him the most at the time and he left me alone on the side of the road cause he didn't want to deal with me. I was upset and sick and depressed and it really didn't help. Every promise broken.
I want to tell you what happened to pull me out of that deppression and crazyness. It really is quit amazing. My friend Emily told me to talk this kid named Ryan. He is her Fiance's cousin. He is amazing and funny and helped me alot. Its funny cause that same day I had just told Miles (cause I couldn't let go of him.) that I couldn't deal with everthing that I had been going through. The timing was perfect, I was about to break.
Anyway I talked to him and slowly fell for him the entire time (cheesy I know). He just always knows just what to say or do to make me feel better. He really has been so good to me and for me. I find myself more and more facinated by him each and every day.
He lives quite a ways away so I can't see him every day. I wish I could though, but he came out for thankgiving and I got to spend almost the entire weekend with him. We talked alot and just hung out. We also discovered that our feelings for eachother are mutual. it means alot to have someone in your life who really truly cares and you know will be there no matter what. Especially when you need them.
With everything so perfect I can't not beleive that Heavenly Father sent us to eachother. My testimony is stronger now then it ever has been and my heart sings with praise and joy with every thought. I have alot to be thankfull for. I know the Lord answered my prayers in sending Ryan. I needed a way for myself to be able to deal with what I was going through and I was given that, almost had it taken away when I could no longer go forward. The trial is still there, and my heart still aches. I know that I'm scared and hesitant but I also know I'm where I need to be. I know that Heavenly Father is there for us ans I know He answers our prayers. I find it truly amazing just what he can do for us. Even if its in a very unexpected way.
